Moonstone27

Still around but mostly as a fav/goer. With eclipse I can't do much, I hate going to the favs cause I can't organize with their new methods. Sorry I'm quiet, I come when I can, its not as much exciting these days.

Its also quieter since... a month ago it finally happened. I lost Gizmo. I've been mourning/missing him. I still don't understand, I guess he had too many seizures and it did something to him.... I still cry sometimes to myself if I think about it. I wonder did I do something wrong? I know he was 16, but I tried so hard to keep him calm.

To the point I'd argue with my folks about his diet and getting him excited. They'd tell me "he's a dog let him be a dog"... but I just.... I found his dates of his seizures and I just wonder was it all for nothing. I worked so hard to keep him happy and I felt I either didn't do enough or it just didn't matter.

Today was also my first day home alone, without him... and I kept thinking about him. I miss my dog, I wish he was still here. Not in that condition whatever age he was happy and healthy. //Sigh//

Sorry to those I just downed. Nothing else, just living life. Keeping a positive attitude in the climate we have today. I won't get down and bring up reality. Just I dunno I look at shows and movies to keep my mind off that stuff. Watched Black Phone, Halloween Ends, Inside Job (netflix), The Great North, What We Do In the Shadows, a lot of good stuff. Disappointed Covid era knocked out some shows... sorta I mean I still blame that for losing Dark Crystal Age of Resistance. But oh well

Hope Everyone is well.

I'm mildly around. Not enough to say "I support DA and love them". No still think them and Eclipse is shitty. I poke around for free badges and for the remaining friends. This and last year have been something. I got hit by a car, a concussion , COVID and shit hit (which ya'll know you're there... and the damn thing cost me several good TV shows), been watching mom recover from heart surgery (among other things), family drama, family shit... ... and while it looks like things are starting to finally turn around... god/or life still has more punches to throw.

Gizmo's been having a time. Besides being diagnosed with a heart murmur he's had seizures... is it from his heart murmur? I dunno I called the vet but because we picked a vet who works only ONE day of the week... I have to wait till Thursday. Its giving me I dunno something? I dunno you ever feel like you're "okay" but at the same time not okay.... thats how I feel. I wanna say "I'll be okay" or be a person who can "pray" things to be better but I'm not a religious person.

I think watching him go through this is bringing up old memories with my last dog, Tip. Before he passed he had seizures... and it was hard to wake up day or night to see him suffering.... Gizmo's feel worse because "technically" the vet said "he's mostly healthy and should be okay"... but hard to feel assured with that when he gets a seizure from doing things that were once upon a time normal for him. Wanting to play with his toys, the "zoomies" (if you got a dog you know what I mean)... it feels like a lie to me... and more importantly feels like God/or Life/or an omen whatever telling me what I had to with my last dog.

Be prepared. Be prepared to say goodbye. And it probably sounds dumb but I really love my dog. I had hoped I had a few more years with him before I had to get ready for this. I can't watch him suffer. A part of me is "you'll be okay"/ "its life"....... but the other part of me wants to cry and beg for it not to be this time. My mother wants to be optimistic and while I want to, I can't help but worry. What if this vet can't help him. What if its gonna get worse. I know it didn't get better with Tip it eventually got worse. It hurts the idea that might be Gizmo's outcome.

Well I'm gonna go I needed to vent cause I have no one to vent to. And I can't cry in front of anyone. Its a mix of people would tell me "its gonna be okay"/or "you'll be fine" when neither response gives me much relief.

I'm not asking for prayers (if you offer some I wouldn't mind).... I just needed to reach out or something because I hate bottling it in.

To my friends who loved my art or rped with me (okay only 2.). I'm sorry I've pretty much left due to Eclipse and the staff's lack of actual work. Look I met a staffer and she was very nice. But even after she told me she'd bring it up and a different staffer said they acknowledged some ACTUAL glitches Eclipse was having.... its been over months and DA have STILL done nothing to fix the problems. The fixed that "Oh look you gotta manually delete your messages" idea faster than my ACTUAL problems (well so was that one but thats not the point). I am sorry to any future watchers or current watchers or people's who art I was following.

As a community I love you guys, you were awesome, your art was awesome. But Eclipse is too much for me. Its basically made for phone/app users which would not be bad but I'm not on my shitty phone. I only used ID Go when Xfinity took the channel. A lot of this felt unnecessary and I have stressed for months to Deviantart that I have carpal tunnel syndrome, and other issues due to well I'll be blunt being on the computer to much and some of these updates don't HELP my conditions it would have made it worse.

Best example would always be the sorting our favs/collections/gallery/folders. Besides being stuck with annoying endless flippin' scroll. (Which to a degree I could have let go) More importantly we are stuck with that shitty box template. That takes up half the page when spoiler alert we had plenty of room using the actual page to move the pictures/deviations. But that we are ONLY allowed to move ONE GODDAMN PICTURE. ONE, that would be good if I had 10 per folder. But some collections/gallery folders have more than 1.6k. THAT IS A LOT OF SCROLLING for ONE PICTURE. ONE AT A TIME. That would have killed my hands/arms/etc. And I doubt DA wants to pay for shoulder surgery/hand, etc. And guys I'm sorry but the main reason I loved DA was because I could have organization and this website has little to NO organziation.

ANd I'll be honest I hate the ripoff of patreon where you have "have to pay to view" picture or better yet "watcher artist" and no even if you fav. Moment you unwatch that damn thing still shows up in your own favs. Look I'm not judging, to a point I get it. We're in 2020, a sucky pandemic year. But the whole fun of going to DA, using Homepage/Popular/Search Engine was faving. And I'm a fav-run person not ashamed. Its just the new features ruin the fun of faving. I mean I love art but I don't want to "watch" EVERY artist everytime I use the search engine just have my fav visible.

Its too much for me to come here, put up with this crap. I'm just forever sorry because I've had 13 years at this site and several photos. But Eclipse was the final straw. I love you guys and I will miss you but this was it for me. I can't take it. ANd neither can my right arm. I have no medical insurance. I have no right to ask for money. So I'm pretty much staying off DA for the sake of whats left of my right arm (carpal tunnel, also probably rotator cuff).

Nope already on here a day. Some of it I could have put up with but this is literally it. Its a godamn cluttered mess. I mean their rival sites were better than this. I came here for the art not to join Facebook. Also not fond of how there are NO category options anymore. No I don't need their system to do it for me :/. Though it explains before the force transition why when I was in classic DA I couldn't find that. Look I prefer categories, and I don't need two pages for my deviations/comments that thing was fine in my opinion. I don't want to know "liked comments" (no offense people that liked my comments love ya'll but its of no importance to me.

I also don't like that apparently I can't move any links into new tabs apparently. (sorry I have my ways). And while its somewhat simpler to move them to collections. I say somewhat I still think thats a lot of work just to go to favorites to put them where I want them. Thats as stupid as when Google bought youtube and I had to have Googleplus just to read my stupid comments FROM youtube. But I apparently can not sort them. No not the way I want. Their way is fine... if I have ONE page of favs. But I'm somewhat ocd about organizing my gallery. And I can not move ANY of them to a place I want that has over 1000 pics. Yes I'm that repetitive. Same thing would go for my own photos. Again easy if you got like 20 pics but over a 100 would be hard to move anything picture wise where I want it.

And I shouldn't have to click "Move forward" more than 20 times just to arrange where I want my FUCKING FOLDERS. Sorry/not sorry I shouldn't cuss I should be civil but thats a lot of work for a person with carpal tunnel and lets get started on how shitty/stupid I've had to report spam accounts over a span of three years to this website -_-;. I want this to work but this goddamn format will LITERALLY kill my freakin' hands. So unless DA wants to pay for my noninsured butt/and carpal tunnel syndrome hands for future surgery. I can NOT do it. And its not as easy as it sounds to just quit old habits.

To the people I watch/or have watched me. I love you guys I've had 13 years here and I want to upload my photos but I can not do this. I can't keep going back and forth for something that use to be simpler for me to work with. And considering that DA will forcibly delete my own messages even if I want to come back. Don't take it too personally, Eclipse said itself it'll delete my own messages even though their MINE. Unless they're referring to "removed" to which sorta understand and at same time "DA this whole system's still a goddamn mess)

And my points/or llama trades seem gone sooo yeah. I love you all both loyal watchers, people who faved me(in a nice sense I mean not weird sense 8B), I want to fav you guys but too much for me. I will make somewhat passing visits (if DA doesn't delete my messages) to see people's art? I still have three pictures I haven't finished. I WANT to finish them so at my own pace I will finish. When I'm done I'm done, DA's too much of a mess for me to wanna submit my photos. I can NEVER organize the way I want. Only their way which is again will kill my hands and doubt they wanna pay for my medical bills.

Somebody actually call if DA takes some of its criticism and fixes this shitty Eclipse. I'd rather be back with Classic wasn't this hard to rearrange my photos. Again ya'll, y'all have been great but I can't work with this I need a site I can work with. Not goddamn Facebook/Tumblr. As for my photos I dunno what I'll do with them. I need to find an alternative but as I've listed Facebook/Tumblr/Instagram they're not my thing, mostly they lack orgnization which is what I want. Same thing for Twitter all these are focused on "social media" trending/politics and crap. I just wanted a place to submit my photos. Sooo if I find a good substitute I'll give you guys a call or whatever. But that will be a while. I'm still recovering from a concussion, I am getting better though cause I talked with a friend on Skype like we use to 8B.

To quote Harley Quinn to DA: "I just want to thank absolutely no one. Fuck alll of ya...Have a great fucking summer!". Obviously wasn't gonna quote the whole thing.