Moonstone27

Still around but mostly as a fav/goer. With eclipse I can't do much, I hate going to the favs cause I can't organize with their new methods. Sorry I'm quiet, I come when I can, its not as much exciting these days. Its also quieter since... a month ago it finally happened. I lost Gizmo. I've been mourning/missing him. I still don't understand, I guess he had too many seizures and it did something to him.... I still cry sometimes to myself if I think about it. I wonder did I do something wrong? I know he was 16, but I tried so hard to keep him calm. To the point I'd argue with my folks about his diet and getting him excited. They'd tell me "he's a dog let him be a dog"... but I just.... I found his dates of his seizures and I just wonder was it all for nothing. I worked so hard to keep him happy and I felt I either didn't do enough or it just didn't matter. Today was also my first day home alone, without him... and I kept thinking about him:( . I miss my dog, I wish he was still